I thought I would be happy to go back to sch. I thought I would be happy to see the people I miss so much. I thought I would be safe and cosy again in our pink classroom. But I thought wrong. Today's sort of first day back to sch brought so much unpleasantness.
It's not for me to question why she had to go. it's not for me to ask her to stay. But i just know that she came, made a difference in my life....and now she's going to change everything. She's taking away the nice feelings she gave me, leaving a vacuum in my heart, only filled with memories. but those memories i'm keeping are tangible...and they'll last longer than photos.
*ilu
now i'm worried. not the kind of worry about not doing well in a common test. not the kind of worry when i miss one episode of my favourite serial. it's the kind of worry that i experience sometimes, but it didn't happen. Now it's going to happen. fear.
Come hear my melancholic heartbeat!
Why does love taste so bittersweet?
Please come and dispell my fears.
Please return me all my tears,
Went out with 6 shockingly stupid sisters today. Can't say i enjoyed myself. I didn't. treated them to Marche. It isn't cheap at all. just wishing they apperciate and said "thank you" at least...not snapping at me. No going out, no eating canteen food, no buying drinks for couple of months. that should pay off my debts.
I just made one New Year resolution. gotta stick to it no matter what. it's time i polish up my perserverance and determination.
Isn't it sad Mdm Kor has retired??? Somemore without a word, without a farewell party complete with hugs and teary goodbyes. She is such a compassionate person. I'm going to miss her- a lot. I love you dear...sobs.
Mrs Tian leaving ld joining library. predictably, some ld girls cried. Jasmine should cry.
Big thank you to:
+Aunty Evelyn & Uncle Alan
+Aunty Monica & Uncle Andy
+Yanling
+Wanling
+Karen
+Jessica
+Jasmine, Monghun & Vivien
+Cheryl (tho it's not here yet...better be big to make up for wad she did to me today!! jjk haha!!)
For your lovely christmas presents!! And not forgetting:
+Sch Library
for buying "The City Of Joy". She read this before i think. she cried. i'd cry too and i'd cry to see her cry. sadness+sadness+fear+desperation=???
I feel like i'm being torn apart by 5 horses...psycologically.