I'm sooo angry!!!!!! It's now like 3am and i still cannot sleep!! I hate my insomnia!!!! I hate it I hate it!!!!!!!! Sobs!! why??? Why must i siffer from such a horrible illness????????? A stupid illness that cannot be cured easily without killing myself with sleeping pills!! Sobs!! I always cry at night for this stupid matter. cry out of desperation. no one would understand this stupid feeling.
This is why i've been pinching myself all the time during Lit lessons and washing my face with my waterbottle water. really cannot not fall asleep lor!!! I don't know why, i think Lit lessons are really sleep inducing. I like Mrs C, it's not about her. It's about the subject...and also when use OHP and off the light, classroom become darker. and when it's round noon time, very hot. Ah! A cure for my insomnia. I sleep better when it's hot, not cold. I get cramp legs when it's cold. Erm.. like now i'm having.
Past few night i've been sleeping well only cos i wake up early and go to bed at 1am. And my idea of sleeping well means actually falling asleep before waking up. Usually i do, i fall asleep after 5 most of the night. problem is, i've to get up at 6. I don't know whether not sleeping at all throuhout the night is better or not. At least i don't need to go through the whole process of waking up during my REM sleep or "deep sleep" or watever. Then my mother don't need to spray my with water to wet my already sodden with tears and sweat bed.
I'm soooo angry!!!!!!!!!!!! Not just for this, but i hate CNY this year!! Argh! I'm in a very angry mood!!!
First, no CNY mood!!!! there is no goodies for me, no nice songs played... last year at least got pineapple tarts my aunties made and i bought the Mediacorp CNY CD and played it like all the time. this year???? Nothing nothing nothing. Unless you consider the cashewnut cookies i bought from Charlene which i finished few days befoer CNY.
Next, lose sooooo much money! Of course not gambling lar! If i gambled, i'd have won money for sure. Most of my nieces and nephews and cousins are younger and very naive. Hongbao!!!!! Everyone give us sooo little!! My total sum of hongbao money don't even reach $100!!!! Inevitably i say, coz some ppl give $2. Yeah. my parents only got 2 miserable children while most other familes have 3.
And i lost even more money today!!! I think unless you are a rich millionaire's dotter who have this utterly bad habit of throwing tens of dollars for a small kick, don't go river hongbao. Wah man! Cut throat!!!!!!!! -nurses my bruised wallet- That's like almost half my month's pocket money gone and my parent's xin xin ku ku half day salary. And what did i get?? Heartache, throatache, headache.
yeah, lamented enough. What a bad start to a new year. and seriously, i think i like sch more...more than holidays. At least i only spend $1 on lunch every day and can look forward to dancing the family and line dance every Monday. Seriously, teachers should dance too. They consider themselves "part of the St Nicks family" then don't dance...how can????? Yeah and i get to see *her almost everyday.
This is why i've been pinching myself all the time during Lit lessons and washing my face with my waterbottle water. really cannot not fall asleep lor!!! I don't know why, i think Lit lessons are really sleep inducing. I like Mrs C, it's not about her. It's about the subject...and also when use OHP and off the light, classroom become darker. and when it's round noon time, very hot. Ah! A cure for my insomnia. I sleep better when it's hot, not cold. I get cramp legs when it's cold. Erm.. like now i'm having.
Past few night i've been sleeping well only cos i wake up early and go to bed at 1am. And my idea of sleeping well means actually falling asleep before waking up. Usually i do, i fall asleep after 5 most of the night. problem is, i've to get up at 6. I don't know whether not sleeping at all throuhout the night is better or not. At least i don't need to go through the whole process of waking up during my REM sleep or "deep sleep" or watever. Then my mother don't need to spray my with water to wet my already sodden with tears and sweat bed.
I'm soooo angry!!!!!!!!!!!! Not just for this, but i hate CNY this year!! Argh! I'm in a very angry mood!!!
First, no CNY mood!!!! there is no goodies for me, no nice songs played... last year at least got pineapple tarts my aunties made and i bought the Mediacorp CNY CD and played it like all the time. this year???? Nothing nothing nothing. Unless you consider the cashewnut cookies i bought from Charlene which i finished few days befoer CNY.
Next, lose sooooo much money! Of course not gambling lar! If i gambled, i'd have won money for sure. Most of my nieces and nephews and cousins are younger and very naive. Hongbao!!!!! Everyone give us sooo little!! My total sum of hongbao money don't even reach $100!!!! Inevitably i say, coz some ppl give $2. Yeah. my parents only got 2 miserable children while most other familes have 3.
And i lost even more money today!!! I think unless you are a rich millionaire's dotter who have this utterly bad habit of throwing tens of dollars for a small kick, don't go river hongbao. Wah man! Cut throat!!!!!!!! -nurses my bruised wallet- That's like almost half my month's pocket money gone and my parent's xin xin ku ku half day salary. And what did i get?? Heartache, throatache, headache.
yeah, lamented enough. What a bad start to a new year. and seriously, i think i like sch more...more than holidays. At least i only spend $1 on lunch every day and can look forward to dancing the family and line dance every Monday. Seriously, teachers should dance too. They consider themselves "part of the St Nicks family" then don't dance...how can????? Yeah and i get to see *her almost everyday.