After watching that documentary on fertilization, embryos, foetuses and birth, i suddenly feel so peaceful. An hour ago, i was fretting over an excuse to give my CCA tmr. then it was like looking at life. Life is so precious, what difference will it make if i miss one ld session? Prob i'll lose out on some gossips and vday presents... that's all. I should be so happy to be alive now! Sooo many sperms travelled such an arduous journey to fertilize the egg. But there's only 1 winner. And 23 of my chromosome are gotton from the victor. They said sth like almost half of conceptions fail. means actually i should have like few more siblings... Last time when i watch shows like this, I'll think "Wah!! I went through all of this. I was a zygote, then an embryo, then a feotus, then a baby!!". Today i thought "This will be going on inside of me about a decade later. my baby will go through all these." Does that say aynthing??

[Warning: things written below not meant for ld-related people!! Read at your own risk. ]So headache! Hate this stupid dilema lor!!!!!!! I like got 4 things clash on Friday, which is tmr. And one of them happens to the un-ponnable LD. great right? The rest are going to TCS, airport to chase BOA and TKK meeting. TCS I really really really must go. or else my conscience will prick and stab me for life. It's like that last chance i can go lor! Ld i anytime can go one lor. =( Ms Jeya said you sth like we are making ld teachers seem like monsters. I was thinking "Really? I didn't know ld girls are so kind!!" never mind, i'll try giving one ld teacher a chance to be a reasonable human being tmr. If she dosen't want to make use of this golden opportunity to get into my good books, too bad soo sad!!!!! I'm such a guai girl, maybe i should just be rebellious for once. It's not being unreasonable, my behaviour is already above the average standard lor. ppl in another CCA can pon like mad lor. But then again, if i'm in another CCA, maybe i won't be obsessed with ponning.

Time is so tight man. i wish i can spilt myself into few bodies! Or i'll just go make a wax figure of myself to use every friday. I used to say i wish i got an identical twin so that she can go ld for me. But i can't be so mean to my sister. blood is thicker than water.

Vday is coming... yet i'm in a very angry mood. I really need to go tcs lor. Hey thought of a good excuse. I'm mentally unsound, so all my crimes are not punishable. Wait! There's a loophole. I need a doctor to certify. I think if i sit for a test "The science of bluffing your way out of CCA" I'd fail.

ld'll take a bow out of my life in july, ok. it's like less than half a year. oh man. this sounds worse than i thought.