i'm so jaded. i wish i can be blind and deaf momentarily so i will not see and hear the ugly things that are going on around me. everywhere. but i'm not. definately i don't see everyone thru rosetinted glasses. i can see motives, insecurities, selfishness. sometimes, i see green. i feel different. different set of morals, different interests, different taste. thus i feel alone. like a giraffe in a flock of geese. the geese are oblivious to the giraffe, much less understand it. the giraffe looks up to the flock and blinks. perhaps everyone feel they are different from everyone else. in primary school, i cried coz operations officer scold ("i'll report your mother to the police!" (illegal parking in sch compound)) in secondary school, i cried coz project mates don't do their fair share. in jc, i probably won't cry. but if i do, you'd have seen the real me. lock myself in your heart and swallow the key. i trudge thru the weekdays looking forward to weekends, and sleep thru the weekends dreading monday. and daydreaming. from riding on a flying green-spotted pig to kissing big-eyed baby blonds. super stressed, 2 million stuffs to do. everybody, take a deep breath and count to 3, then release slowly in 10counts, making sure most of the air is expelled.