I just can't help loving those kids so much. Of course I've dreamt of getting married, having kids and being in a sweet cosy family. But the young families I've seen on mrts...they all look so tired and bored. I'm happy loving other people's kids, dowan to have my own already.

I went relief again that day. Get lower sec classes damn sian. Sec1 need to act fierce. They are so funny I want to laugh, but have to keep a straight face. Sec2 fearless so TRY to use ku rou ji. Upper sec the best. I wouldnt mind not getting paid to sit in with them, discussing stuff from geog to gossips, reliving my lost youth.

They are damn cute one. Everytime want to go toilet I dunno what for. The girls can stay there for 30min to comb hair. More bimbotic than st nicks girls lor. The guys will act stomach ache to get exit pass. So many starsearch potentials. The girls of course say menses. Sometimes they wave a pad to show me. One of them even showed me a stain on her skirt! I have no idea if it's real. It looked real.

Sometimes I feel guilty cos they are offering the purest of friendship and respect, in exchange for the facade I put up.