Tada! My new blogskin! This new blogskin is designed to suit my subsequent posts. You know, nature, travelling, animals, photography, my thoughts on vegetarianism and euthanasia...

But let me indulge in my last incoherent emo post.

It's 5am, but I won't try to to overcome jetlag. Daytime is definately more productive than the night. While waiting for the sleepiness to kick in, I pace the house, listen to music, eat supper. The hours fly by.

When I can't sleep, it's because I'm troubleshooting my current state of discontentment. Is it because I'm chasing perfection, lack courage, or I don't know what I want yet?

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.

Actual pain for future gain, potential gain? Nothing in the future is certain, except of course death and taxes. The cookie experiment. Children were given a cookie, and told that if they didn't take it, they would be given 10 cookies later. (And those who practised delayed gratification did better in SAT scores when they grew up.) But hypothetical situations don't usually mirror life. As I see it, in real life, if you refuse a cookie, nobody's gonna give you 10 cookies. You'll just have a trimmer tummy. Or maybe it won't make a freaking difference.

And that someone suddenly hugged me and said "Are you starting to feel lonely?? Don't be! Cos you have me!" Only I don't know who that someone is.